I have to confess the sin of envy.
Every day I read a statements by writers who confidently say they have been called by God to write.
I envy their call. And I envy their confidence.
I don’t feel called by God to write.
Writing is something I do, something I have always done. I’ve made a living by words, and in many ways I’ve built a life from words.
I’ve been a reporter, copy editor, newsletter writer, news release writer, speechwriter, report writer, ghostwriter, article writer, speaker, reader, teacher, presenter, blogger, corporate blogger, poet, contributing editor, novelist, Twitter editor (tweeter?) and Facebook page manager. I’m sure I’ve left some things out.
My life has been filled with words, by words, for words. Words shaped by experience, understanding and imagination.
But I have never felt the confidence to say that God called me to write. It’s a skill or gift or ability He gave me, but I can’t say it was a calling in the way we Christians mean “calling.”
What I believe He did call me to was faith – is faith.
A.W. Tozer in The Pursuit of God says something about this.
“Imagination is not faith,” he writes. “The two are not only different from, but stand in sharp opposition to, each other. Imagination projects unreal images out of the mind and seeks to attach reality to them. Faith creates nothing; it simply reckons upon that which is already there…The Object of the Christian’s faith is unseen reality.”
Tozer says it better than I think I could have. My imagination – as wild and exciting and weird and strange as it might be (I write poetry, after all, and there are few things stranger than that) – is not my faith. Imagination creates something out of the mind; faith apprehends a reality that is already there.
But I do wish I could feel some of that confidence, at least sometimes.
Led by Jason Stasyszen and Sarah Salter, we’ve been reading and discussing Tozer’s The Pursuit of God. To see more posts on this chapter, “Apprehending God,” please visit Jason’s site, Connecting to Impact. Next week we will begin a discussion of chapter 5.