My adult life
has been structured by cycles of upheaval happening at roughly seven-year
intervals.
1973: I should
have been riding on top of the world. Everything seemed to be going my way. I’d
achieved everything I had set out to achieve in college. Yet I was a total
mess. And it was this mess that led me to becoming a Christian.
1980: We had
moved to St. Louis from Houston. The Texas housing market was at a standstill,
due to state usury laws capping mortgage interest rates at 10% (and the prime
rate was well north of that). Two contracts on our house in Houston had fallen
through, we were paying for a mortgage in Houston and an apartment in St.
Louis, my wife was pregnant, and we were worse than flat broke. This mess led
me to become understanding of depression, the need to confess weakness, and the
need to depend upon others.
1987: My father
died, the leadership structure at the church we were attending blew up (blowing
me with it), and then events at work led to what looked like my career blowing
up. We would eventually find another church home, and what looked like my
career dead end became the pivot point for my corporation,
1994-1999: This
seven-year “zap” extended over three years. The CEO I was writing speeches for
announcement his retirement; his replacement was, unfortunately for me and the
eventually the rest of the corporation, a mess. The company went through three
years of intense turmoil and upheaval; I was spun-off with a division and the
mother company was eventually itself bought up. This is where I truly learned
that ability, experience, and even reputation counted for nothing in the
corporate world. What mattered was politics. What mattered to God was something
different.
2003: The
recession caught up with my communications consulting business. It had been
gangbusters for two years, began to sputter the third year, and then was
looking for a crash landing the fourth year. What I learned was to not dismiss
unexpected opportunities, like working as a director of communications for an
urban school district.
2009-2010: Back in
the corporate world, a string of major career successes led to – a deliberate
and ultimately successful effort to destroy what had been one of the best
functioning staff organizations in the company’s history. Major lesson learned:
the world, when it feels the status quo is threatened, will actively oppose even
what’s in its own best interests.
These times were
difficult. In questioned what God was doing in every one of them. I often shook
my fist. I often felt abandoned. But I hung on, sometimes by my fingernails and
many times with the help of others. I knew I was being taught something. The “something”
only became apparent after the fact.
In The Discipline of Grace: God’s Role and Our Role in the
Pursuit of Holiness, Jerry
Bridges says that “…in times of adversity, do not despise it by refusing to
acknowledge God’s hand in it, and do not lose heart under it by failing to see
His love in it.”
It’s about time
for another installment of the cycle. And there’s been a situation going on for
several months that’s been hard, one that it would be easy to learn the wrong
lesson from. So I wait to see what God is teaching me this time.
Led by Jason
Stasyszen and Sarah Salter, we’ve been reading The Discipline of Grace by Jerry Bridges. To see what others had to
say on this chapter, “The Discipline of Adversity,” please visit Sarah at ReadingBetween the Lines. This
concludes the discussion.
Photograph by Lynn Greyling via Public
Domain Pictures. Used with permission.
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