Tuesday, October 7, 2014

Poets and Poems: Aaron Belz and “Glitter Bomb”


When you have your first child, you do what all first-time parents do: you make a will. When our oldest was born, we found ourselves an attorney and made a will. I remember the meeting where we signed the wills; our son was perfectly content to set in my lap or my wife’s lap and make rude noises. The attorney understood; he had children of his own, including a 9- or 10-year-old son named Aaron.
 
The attorney’s son would grow up to become a poet, Aaron Belz. He’s now published his third collection of poetry, Glitter Bomb.

I may have just found a new favorite poet.


To continue reading, please see my post today at Tweetspeak Poetry.

Monday, October 6, 2014

Slow Church: Scarcity vs. Abundance


I grew up in what as then and what would be considered a solid middle class home. It was the almost stereotyped post-World War II American experience: father worked; mother was a stay-at-home. We lived in a suburb of 1950s tract houses. We Baby Boomers overran everything – schools, churches, the neighborhood. (It’s difficult to describe to a young parent today what Halloween looked like in the 1950s and 1960s.)

While we weren’t wealthy, we were also not deprived. We always had food on the table. In her later years, my mother talked about how important that was, because she grew up in a poor family in the 1930s Depression, and she could remember times of going to bed hungry because there was literally no food in the house. She was able to do something her older sisters could not – graduate from high school. College, however, had been out of the question.

My father came from marginally better circumstances. His father had been a railroad surveyor and then a small grocery store owner. They lived on the poor side of town, and 1930s Shreveport has a well defined class structure (my father called it a caste system), but they never lacked for basics like food. They may not have else much more than that, but they did have enough resources to keep the family fed.

Even for most of the poor in 2014 America, it’s hard to imagine not having food in the house. It does happen, though, even in a society as wealthy as ours. But it doesn’t happen on the scale that the nation experienced in the 1930s.

And yet, say Christopher Smith, John Pattison and Jonathan Wilson-Hargrove in Slow Church: Cultivating Community in the Patient Way of Jesus, “…we live in a culture that is driven by an economy rooted in the myth that there is not enough.” This myth of scarcity preys upon our fears “that there will not be enough resources in the world to provide for us, and thus that we might starve or otherwise suffer from deprivation.”

For American Christians, they say, this creates an obvious and constant tension. On the one hand, our culture is based upon the economics of scarcity, and our consumerist society emphasizes that over and over. On the other hand, we know God’s promise to sustain us, his promise that he will provide for our needs.

Our usual response is to agree with God’s provision on Sunday and heed the culture the rest of the week. We’ve got both bases covered.

I have a confession here: this chapter of the book made me distinctly uncomfortable. And I think that’s a good thing. What I don’t need and don’t want is to read something that merely serve to reinforce existing behavior.

I don’t mean to imply, and neither do the authors of Slow Church, that we should sell our cars, and empty our closets and pantries. But what we can do is consider how we are using the resources God has given us. Are we building barns or building the kingdom?

For the past several Mondays, I’ve been discussing Slow Church. This week’s discussion is about the chapter entitled “Abundance.” Next week, the discussion will be on “Gratitude.” I do highly recommend this book, but it won’t make you feel comfortable.


Illustration by Karen Arnold via Public Domain Pictures. Used with permission.

Sunday, October 5, 2014

Two freedoms


What is it I asked
what is this news
he said it is two:
freedom from
freedom to
freedom from what
enslaves
freedom to be
a servant
A contradiction I said
a reality he said
smiling
one does not exist
without the other


Photograph by George Hodan via Public Domain Pictures. Used with permission.

Saturday, October 4, 2014

Portraits


The hallway is dark
as he moves slowly,
expecting to stumble
but lights turn on
over portraits
portraits of his past,
his birth
childhood
his mother tending
his knee, scraped
tending his brothers,
portraits, his schools
and people he knew,
friends, teachers, cooks,
portraits, the light
shining above each
to illuminate each
singly, his life
or lives, his wedding,
children born,
portraits, career success /
failure, portraits.
His pace quickens
to reach the end
the final portrait
he sees the light
above it and as
he arrives
at the final portrait
the light goes dark.


Photograph by Maliz Ong via Public Domain Pictures. Used with permission.

Friday, October 3, 2014

Walking Down Second Avenue


I was walking down
Second Avenue and saw
on a bench by the deli
scribbling in his notebook
as he usually does at lunchtime
when he wanders from
the museum the one with
the paint flung against
canvases (Pollock) (de Kooning)
on the bench he’s spilling
color and listening to jazz
(Miles Davis)  (or was it Brubeck?)
He looks up and see through
me not at me not me
and mutters something about
and lunch.

Related:

My post this week at Tweetspeak Poetry: September Beats: Frank O’Hara


Photograph of Frank O’Hara from a 2006 exhibit at the Museum of Modern Art Library.

Thursday, October 2, 2014

“Identity Crisis” by Michael Perkins


When it comes to devotionals, my preference is for simple and straightforward with a sharp point. With Identity Crisis: 21 Days of Discovering Who God Says You Are by Michael Perkins, I got all three.

Perkins, who’s pastor of Trinity Church of the Nazarene in Corpus Christi, Texas, has written a simple devotional guide with a thematic point. Based on what he experienced in his own life, he learned that his understanding of himself was not the same as God’s understanding of him. He echoes what may be almost universal thinking for all of us: “I’ve never felt like I was good enough. I never felt like I was smart enough. I never felt like I fit in.”

I’ve followed Michael’s blog for more than four years, and those words in his introduction took me aback? This is Michael Perkins, the guy who has pastored churches, is married to a wonderful wife and has a great kid?

Yes, this is Michael Perkins.

His devotional guide is simple. Identity Crisis includes 21 short devotionals to cover a three-week period. Each devotional deals with a specific characteristic of who God says you are. And then there are two prompts – a prayer and a challenge.

The entries include friend, child, forgiven, valuable, purchased, masterpiece, accepted, chosen, and more. One of my favorites was “letter” – did you know that you were a living letter, an epistle to be read by everyone?

Identity Crisis is a wonderful devotional guide, simple, written in easily understandable language, and speaking directly to hearts. Ours and God’s.


Photograph: Michael Perkins speaking at a church retreat.

Wednesday, October 1, 2014

The Worm and the Butterfly


There is a scene in my novel A Light Shining where Michael Kent-Hughes, the junior priest at St. Anselm’s Church in San Francisco, meets with Jason, a 15-year-old street kid who’s been attending Michael’s church. He’s been a thief and a prostitute, doing whatever was needed to survive on the streets.

Michael and Jason are talking, and Jason wants to know why the church cares about him and the other street kinds, and why Michael cares.

“Because you matter,” Michael says. “You matter to God. And because you matter to God, you matter to us. Jason, God sees you as something valuable. You have great value in his eyes.”

“I’m a piece of crap, Father Michael,” Jason responds. “That’s all I am. I steal when I have to. I’ve done drugs, all of them. I hustle tricks to make money. There’s no value here. I’m a piece of crap.” He stares at Michael defiantly.

“That may be what you think,” Michael responds. “And that may be what a lot of people think. But it’s not what God thinks. And it’s not what Father John and I think. Jason, you and maybe others see what’s on the surface. And what’s on the surface may be ugly, to you and a lot of people.But what really matters is what’s inside and what’s in your heart. What God sees is the man He created you to be. He sees that potential, that possibility. He sees the sin, too, the sin in you and the sin in me and in every one of us. And that’s what Jesus died for – He died so that sin in all of us is forgiven and we can become the people God intended us to be.”

I’ve been reading The Cure: What if God Isn’t Who You Think He Is and Neither Are You, by John Lynch, Bruce McNichol and Bill Thrall, and the scene in A Light Shining popped into my head when I read this sentence:

“Your view of you is the greatest commentary on your view of God.”

The authors use a metaphor: we see ourselves as the caterpillar, the worm, while God sees the butterfly.

Even after we believe, it’s often difficult to let go of the past, what has shaped us, the sin in our lives. He’s hard to imagine being forgiven for the things we have done, or said, or been.

We carry a lot of old baggage. What we don’t realize is that God has thrown it out.

All of it.

“You are no longer who you were, even on your worst day,” the authors of The Cure write. “What we believed in that first moments of trusting Jesus affects everything.”

We’re not worms. We’re not caterpillars.

In God’s eyes, we’re butterflies.


Led by Jason Stasyszen and Sarah Salter, we’ve been reading The Cure. Thuis concludes our discussion of chapter three, “Two Gods.” To see more posts on this chapter, please visit Jason at Connecting to Impact.


Photograph by Svetlana Tikhonova via Public Domain Pictures. Used with permission.