I
know the date, time, and place almost exactly.
Jan.
26, 1973, about 9 p.m., outside a room in a basement lecture hall at LSU in
Baton Rouge.
I
didn’t do the proverbial “ask Jesus into my heart as my personal savior.” It
didn’t go quite that way. It was a silent prayer, but it went more like this: “I’m
running into something here that I don’t understand, a standard that I can’t
measure up to or even hope to measure up to. In comparison, everything I’ve
known and wanted and desired is trash. I don’t know why you want me, but since
you do, you’ve got me.”
I
can’t explain this, but very quickly everything became brand new. I was not “madly
in love with Jesus.” I had no mountain-top emotional experiences. But it was
all brand new, and I was now seeing things with new eyes.
No
one talked about worship wars, culture wars, politics, or the new building
program. The church I started attending wasn’t a conventional church at all –
it was a group of people who met on Sundays in a lecture hall in LSU’s law
school.
I
was introduced to a small Bible study group that met in a house off-campus on Saturday
mornings. At my first meeting with them, the discussion was about the design of
the tabernacle for the Hebrews during the 40 years in the wilderness.
I
even went on what today would be called a short-term mission trip – a beach
outreach during spring break at Destin, Florida. I remember having an hour-long
conversation with a tourist from Germany.
I
didn’t know it at the time, but those very early days of my new-found belief
would shape my faith for the next 40 years – the way I thought about faith, the
way I tried to live it, the way I understood it. It was never about
institutions, denominations, or buildings. I encountered all of those things
and more along the way, but I never confused them with the church or my faith.
Perhaps
most significantly, I have never had doubts about Jesus, God, or my faith. I’ve
had plenty of times, serious times, of asking “Why,” and not understanding, and
getting angry. But I’ve never had a “crisis of faith,” although I know people
who have. I’ve never gotten caught up in the evolution-versus-creationism
debate.
In
a very real sense, I have had the gift of faith. (If there is any of me in the
main character of Michael Kent in my two novels, it is precisely this gift of
faith.)
Last
week, we
followed David Platt as he jackhammered some of the concrete of American
cultural Christianity. We’ve had some time to clear away the rubble and let the
dust settle.
To
the extent that it’s possible, in Follow
Me: A Call to Die. A Call to Live, Platt has blasted away the “American
cultural” part and is reaching to define what’s left – the “Christianity” part.
He’s stripping away what we Americans understand about Jesus, and taking us to
what looks like a very different place – the place where Jesus is.
What
this is about, Platt says, is taking Jesus at his word. It’s not picking or
choosing what we’re most comfortable with, but taking him at his word – his whole
word.
And
when we do that, we become part of a grand story. “So we go as disciples of
Jesus who love his Word and trust his truth,” Platt says. “We got not simply as
men and women who at some point decided to make Jesus our personal Lord and
Savior, but ultimately as men and women who at every point are devoted to
proclaiming Jesus as the universal Lord and Savior. We believe him as his
disciples; therefore, we obey him and make disciples.”
That
small group Bible study I joined right after finding faith? And that first
study about the diagram of the tabernacle in the wilderness? What I remember
most about it was the study leader showing how the lines intersected.
The
lines took the form of a cross.
As
soon as I saw it, I knew it was true. I knew it had always been true.
We’re
discussing Follow Me over at The High Calling. Laura Boggess is
leading the discussion, and various writers are posting each week. Today’s post is by Sheila LaGrand,
and she’s covering chapters 4 and 5..
Related:
Here
Come the Radicals. Christianity Today
has something of a different take on David Platt, Francis Chan and other
leading “radical” Christians.
Top photograph: the classroom in Lockett Hall, LSU, right outside of which I accepted my new faith in 1973.